Hi i'm nabilah, my friends like to call me 'bedah'. I have been addressed as bedah for a long time now that if anybody calls me by my actual name it sounds borderline derogatory.
A medical student.
The opposite of an idealist. I like cats. And coffee.
okay bye
attached is a playlist that i curated myself and a brief description: a playlist filled with angsty songs that makes you feel like staring longingly through the window, waiting for when your lover to come back from the war (even though you don't exactly have a lover)
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lmao.
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anyways believe me despite the whole depressing vibe this playlist give i am actually fine?? more fine than i used to be for the past few months. i'm glad to say that my anxiety is sort of cured? i mean obviously not cured but i barely have them these days. those intrusive thoughts? hell yea i still have them but it didn't bother me as much. here's to hoping this to last. please.
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and the title is ahem. so basically the next assessment is approaching in 2 days? and i barely studied anything lmao. for this current module-the alimentary system (basically the git tract) got so much anatomy lectures ;-; i cant for the life of me to tolerate anatomy lectures ;-; so many names and i just can't find a way to study these shits in a better way? its basically memorizing and to a certain extent, imagining stuffs. i mean-there's not much to make sense of or to rationalize. memorize je. aku tak boleh function dooooooooooooo macam tu. memorizing is ok but if the stuffs that you want to memorize you can make sense of, or rationalize, or relate-it might help but these things are just plain fancy names with impossibly long characters, tongue-twister level, and then not ONLY u have to remember their names u also have to remember their positions, the significance of that position, their function and how do they develop. we have 31 lectures for anatomy alone. THIRTY FUCKING ONE.
