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Hayyyy look whoz backkkk its ya homegirl right here yassszzzzz ^me as an animal incase u guys are wondering (because i'm nocturnal--gedit gedit? *finger guns*) its been months since my last post but honestly who cares, i'm 99% sure no one really reads my blog lmao. and the reason for my inactivity was simply because i had NOTHING to write (post) about, life has been dull since 1998, nothing's changed. except for the fact that i've just recently sat for my resit paper. to tell you the truth, its not the best feeling in the world. knowing that you failed your viva---and also the fact that you have to go for a viva in the first place---and then you have to spend your almost a month semester holiday to fucking study. dahlah microbe pulak tu YA ALLAH lemme be real here, microbiology-parasitology-pathology arent the stuffs that i'd choose to read when i'm on a fucking VACATION but i had to. but it pays off though, i PASSED my resit!! kalau tak pass aku rasa i might will throw myself idk because can u imagine having to sacrifice your holiday to study when everyone else is relaxing just to fail again? anyway, i dont want to touch elaborately on that, i might bore my (non-existent) readers. the more interesting part i want to share to y'all is that the fact i'm staying alone in my (college) apartment for 4 days! since the resit exam took place on 21st, and we're starting our semester on 26th. seems like there's a lot of gaps there but ya homegirl feels so tired and emotionally and mentally exhausted for another 5 hours trip to JB again. i've just arrived at KL on 20th and you want me to go home the next day? no, thanks. when i said that i wanted to stay, my housemate asked me--'tak takut ke?' and then i replied 'takut apa?' i'm not being 'cakap besar' or anything, i'm genuinely curious of what should i be scared of. i know some of y'all had one idea of exactly what--but really, as a girl, 20 y/o and staying in a house that can cramp 8 people in it ALONE, it could be a lot of things. but i stayed anyway. my father also asked me 'berani ke?' and i was like...i mean....its not like i'm sleeping at kaki lima or anything. i'm staying at a house. a roofed one. that has beds and toilets and living room- if anything you should be asking me, is 'tak sunyi ke?' because YOU DAMN RIGHT I AM sumpah sunyi gila wahahahahah especially at nights. the day is ok, i'm actually having a lot of fun staying here alone because i can do EVRYTHING and ANYTHING that i wanted to---say, singing while dancing like a drunken half aged man, watching movies without using earphones, have my own talkshow, being able to wake up at noon without being scolded/getting judged, sleeping at 5 AM, not showering when i dont want to...man, i could go on. but at late nights, it was quiet and i felt sooo lonely ;-; sometimes an introvert needs a company ya know. but only at night la, i'm good by myself at day. shoo shoo. i also went out to shop for some stuffs yesterday alone. and i was EXHAUSTED. there's a lot of people...and i'm alone...and the grocery bag is damn heavy...at that moment i really wished i have a boyfriend lmao. i need someone to carry my grocery bags when i want to ogle at shoes or stuffs. because i was carrying a lot of stuffs i felt tired and i canceled my plan to buy new stuffs for myself...i was so physically exhausted lmao i went home after like, one hour. and this watsons cashier seriously...i only want to buy my stuffs and blah but he pestering me to buy their member card and i gave him the most bored stare i could ever give that says 'fuck off' but he didnt get the fucking message so i had to sacrifice my fucking 20 ringgit so that he can stop pestering me...ugh men are the worst.
the thing is that, by saying i have 'high standards' doesnt mean i want--say, a tall, rich and handsome guy--i honestly don't care about that, it was just that i get turned off by the most pettiest things. like if he get his grammars wrong or--when one day he smiled and i immediately thought, god i just want to scrub that smile from his face, he looked stupid. or when i had a crush on somebody today, and the next day i thought he doesn't look attractive to me anymore. i never had a crush that lasts more than 2 days since i got here honestly. but i'll tell ya what exactly my ideal type is in case anyone of y'all wants to play matchmaker or something (ha ha)
ya thats pretty much it. so you understand why i have a hard time finding someone to like now right HAHAHAHA
okay that is all for today, pray for me so that i can find me a guy like that, thanks. ciao!
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