One thing that i have recently learnt to observe-aside from whatever that they-my lecturers-were teaching-are their passion on that certain topic they were talking about. especially the older lecturers. tak cakap yang lecturer muda tak nampak passion but it is more apparent, you know, in profesor-profesor otai ni. aku admire gila dengan diorang. they always look like they love what they do, they're passionate about what they're teaching. Bukan just dekat tempat aku belajar je but uni lain too. i watched a physics video-can't remember the name, and idk. it feels enlightening to see how much passion he had on explaining physics thing. you can see how he wanted other people-young students see why he loves the subject, that physics needs to be understood to get some love not hatred like it always do haha. 

what i was trying to say is that, i love it. i love seeing how those people eyes sparkle when they speak of things that they are passionate about. i don't know if i ever do something like that. i like to have conversations on things like that, i'd like to see how much honey drips off from people's eyes when they just talk-about things. things that they're obsessed with, things they loved. be it physics, or my biggest ally of all-maths. I WANT TO KNOW GODDAMNIT. why they love those things the way they do, because i have my own passions, and it always nice to hear other people's too.

talk to me about what makes you tick, what makes you burning in passion. talk to me. i want to see those things from your point of view. how some thing that seems dull and lame to one could look glittery and rainbow colored to others.

these people, seriously, i have soooo much respect for them. tak senang untuk devote your whole attention and effort on one thing. to love what you do-is itself a blessing. lagi-lagi benda meh macam maths hahahahaha but i can see why one would love that particular subject, just like i decided to obsess over humans brain and psychology.

oh well enough for today. i have to get ready lol. class is at 9AM todayy and have to catch the bus by 8AM. adieu.