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4.10.16

❝of being eighteen❞

i am officially 18 for 4 days now.

nothing to brag about, of course. ingat nak buat a special post masa 30th sept haritu but i have absolutely no idea what to write about. this is the same person who thought well, birthdays are overrated. what did we do on that day that we must be celebrated in such ways? we're just simply got out from 'a place' and we cried, that's all. if anyone should be given credits, it would be our mother. they fought the hardest that day.

haha gila pretentious kau ni bedah.

ok fine birthdays should be celebrated. its a reminder at least, that we have gotten a year older. getting older means being wiser, no?

i hope i am.

anyway, for the first time in forever! i found someone who share the same birthday as i am. one of my kuliahmates haha. so jumaat tu bila orang tahu pasal birthday dia, automatically orang tahu pasal birthday aku. i don't really like the attention lol. aku ni dahla awkward, makin bertambah awkward aku. then they (kuliahmates) decided to sing the happy birthday song when we were doing chemistry experiment in the lab. i was like 'gahd help me' because aside from skinship i hate that the most. thank god it didn't last though because our ketua kuliah kan macam sakai so dia pergi sambung 'happy birthday dr. (our lect name)' lol. somehow i was grateful for that. attention was diverted, bedah is free, bedah is a happy girl. hahahaha.

okay, in celebration for being (finally) eighteen-being legal-being an adult. i will share some of my lifelong wishlists with y'alls.

road trip/travel with mi friends, or solo. okay, both. i want to experience travelling with my friends, and alone. selalu baca orang yang solo backpacker, macam best je diorang punya pengalaman. where to? for start, penang! aku tak tahu lah why but dari awal tahun aku teringin gila nak pergi sana. especially georgetown. maybe it has to do with how much an antique, old and colonial buildings enthusiast i am. i love small towns aka pekan. idk why. i feel like i belong there haha.
have a Dr. kat pangkal nama aku, inshaAllah. tak kisah la whether from M.D ke, PhD ke, PsyD ke. takdir Tuhan tak siapa yang tahu en. asalkan ada Dr kat depan muahahahah
i want to stay at Kolej 17 next year. heheh. budak upm faham la kot.
pursuing my masters abroad. London, preferably. aku tak nak satisfied with just a bachelor degree.
have my own house by. uh. 25-26 years old? mana yang paling realistic? means aku tak kongsi dengan anyone be it housemates. i want to have my own house. living alone..hahahaha nampak tak betapa introvertnya aku kat situ.
honestly tak kahwin pun takpe lol. i want to live my life to the fullest. settling down is not important. as long as i'm happy, having a spouse is not necessary.

can't think of anything else. i'm still 18 (for 4 days) though so the list will definitely expand. and last but not least, bedah oi. aku ada a thing or two to say to you.

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-changes can not happen in a day or two! it takes time and that's completely normal. don't beat yourselves up for it.

-yes, you're an introvert, yes you're awkward but honey, you can't make them as an excuse for being an ass to other people. the world is not comprising of just you and your friends and family, there's other people too. improving yourself does not mean shedding a part of your personality.

-i know, despite those resting bitch and tired and sleepy and bored face you actually liked people. they can be nice.

-sometimes you have to be shameless to get what you want. seriously, trust me.

-most of all, you're not a fraud!!!! you get to where you are rn not because of luck!! you worked for it.

i lebiu.

jangan lupa study, first test in a few weeks. kata nak 4 flat, buatlah cara nak dapat 4 flat eyy

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ok tu je. hahahahaha. kbai.

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