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ingat lagi tak post yang aku cakap aku nak duduk sebelah pengetua bagai tu-tak menjadi nampaknya. belum sampai seru lagi. terkilan sikit actually sebab result trial dengan yang real tak banyak beza pun. orang lain meningkat aku statik hahaha sobs nak buat macam mana, rezeki. atleast still lepas syarat nak mohon any science related courses..though i'm not exactly sure aku nak study science lagi. rasa macam dah fedup lepas study benda alah tu for two years. tapi alternativenya ialah seni bina-and its not really a secret how i'm a building design nerd-but aku dah research pasal course ni-diploma, asasi dengan degree and helll semua sounds super challenging. this course require a lot of hand works; in which i'm very terrible at. i'm more visionary than practical kinda person-i prefer working using my brain-generating ideas and so on, bukan make something using my hands... so probably have to rule architecture out? anyway back to sentimental pasal ending my highschool..bila aku nampak budak sekolah kan aku secretly rasa jealous dengan diorang. 'untunglaa boleh pakai baju putih kain turquoise tu lagi sebab aku dah tak boleh pakai dah.' i haven't really give much thought about highschool-ingat lagi time aku form 1 sampai ah form 3? aku tak sabar gila nak graduate then flyyy pergi overseas. form 4 tak payah cakap ah. so masa aku betul-betul dah fedup dengan alam persekolahan ni-aku naik form 5. little that i knew yang the last year boleh ubah mindset aku pasal sekolah. i've gone through a lot, been through a lot. meet new people. notably masa aku dapat pergi program immersion kat SM. Sains Kota Tinggi (SAKTI) and not only aku gain new friends from diff school, but my own school too. Bayangkan lima tahun satu sekolah but time form 5 baru tahu orang tu wujud? haha. sebab beza kelas. ironinya, masa seminggu aku kat situ aku just ingat nak balik je. yelah budak tak pernah masuk asrama kan. dapat culture shock ah. dengan kelas malamnya lagi. time tu dalam otak aku adalah tidur, tidur and tidur. tapi lepas dah balik baru aku rindu suasana kat situ, especially time malam-malam kitorang lepak dalam dorm. we were racially different; baru kenal even bertahun-tahun satu sekolah but somehow we get along pretty well. ingat lagi aku dengan Eyra lumba lari lepas balik kelas malam hahaha. cikgu suruh jaga imej tapi kitorang watlek watpeace je. apa kitorang kesah hahaha lepastu ada program apa entah? dekat PIS (Politeknik Ibrahim Sultan) and benda yang paling aku ingat ialah we're supposed to sleep dalam room; just two people but aku dengan sarah terjah bilik mama dengan eyra. ingat nak sembang je tapi sudahnya kitorang stay the night dekat situ. kitorang main game apa entah lol tak ingat untuk tetapkan tempat tidur masing-masing. paling untung tidur tepi ah, sebab takde ah jadi sandwich kan lol. malangnya, aku lah yang tidur tengah-tengah tu. and we talked about a lot of things..macam crush mama. crush sarah. crush aku. crush eyra. haha. then eyra jadi bulldozer lanyak kitorang perghh pengalaman sekali seumur hidup ni. tapi aku rasa aku dah kena lebih dari sekali. haha nasibbb i think i've said this quite a lot of times. 2015 won't be as fun as it was kalau takde certain manusia ni. ingat lagi how aku nervous gila sebab turun kelas, masuk kelas intan sebab pergh ramai gila perempuan melayu. mesti ah drama-prone kan? but ada hikmah aku masuk situ. aku jumpa Japanthers. seriously words can't express how grateful i am to have them. yes, we've fought countless amount of time, trash talked each other and so on but in the end they're my criminal partners. advisers. love doctors. friends. sisters. family. i've got numerous regret this year. kadang-kadang terfikir mesti best kalau ada time machine? sebab aku nak rewind balik everything so i can replace these regrets with happy memories. taaapi, everything happens for a reason. just i haven't found it yet.. so in short 2015/ my school years bukanlah rainbow unicorn glitter je-ada ribut, taufan and volcano. i've met wonderful people; but i also had a fair share in meeting a few assholes. or just one. who cursz. and tak semuanya kenangan manis je. ada yang buruk, adaaa. but tak banyak. hihi. i laughed a lot, but i also cried a lot. or not. who cursssz but in the end, i am me. and that's a reason to be happy. so, welcome to new world, Nabilah.
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