probably a part of the minority, but i think astrology are bullsht.
the url bedzhang stands for my name (not an actual name, lol) bedah and yixing's family name (zhang)
i'm a huge otaku for Edgar Allan Poe's and Tim Burton's works.
one of my biggest talent is at being painfully awkward
i loATHE eye contacts. and hugs. get them away fro m mE
memes are my life. my life is a meme. meme is me. i am a meme.
i stan suho because he's a walking meme.
i'm obsessed with obscure things people won't give any shits about, like old buildings, antiques, serial killers, unicorns bcs why the hell not
my spirit animal is owl.
fav number is 44. /sly smirk
i have a zero understanding of human interactions. zERO.
i love to write stories but not a big fan of finishing them.
fav tv shows including criminal minds and sherlock!
fav bands are The 1975, Bastille, Twenty One Pilots, Two Door Cinema Club, f(x), Coldplay, f(x), Panic! At The Disco, Mumford and Sons, Radical Face, The Lumineers, f(x), The Nbhd and did i mention f(x)?
attached is a playlist that i curated myself and a brief description: a playlist filled with angsty songs that makes you feel like staring longingly through the window, waiting for when your lover to come back from the war (even though you don't exactly have a lover)
anyways believe me despite the whole depressing vibe this playlist give i am actually fine?? more fine than i used to be for the past few months. i'm glad to say that my anxiety is sort of cured? i mean obviously not cured but i barely have them these days. those intrusive thoughts? hell yea i still have them but it didn't bother me as much. here's to hoping this to last. please.
and the title is ahem. so basically the next assessment is approaching in 2 days? and i barely studied anything lmao. for this current module-the alimentary system (basically the git tract) got so much anatomy lectures ;-; i cant for the life of me to tolerate anatomy lectures ;-; so many names and i just can't find a way to study these shits in a better way? its basically memorizing and to a certain extent, imagining stuffs. i mean-there's not much to make sense of or to rationalize. memorize je. aku tak boleh function dooooooooooooo macam tu. memorizing is ok but if the stuffs that you want to memorize you can make sense of, or rationalize, or relate-it might help but these things are just plain fancy names with impossibly long characters, tongue-twister level, and then not ONLY u have to remember their names u also have to remember their positions, the significance of that position, their function and how do they develop. we have 31 lectures for anatomy alone. THIRTY FUCKING ONE.